This last Friday, 10th of June, David and I celebrated our 12th anniversary together as a couple. Wow 12 years! If it doesn't seem much to you, try imagining a kid with twelve years old. Yeah, it's quite a lot. And it has been quite a journey as well, I can tell you that much.
Love, that word that humans had the need to invent in order to express the greatest feeling of all. If you search for it in a dictionary, you'll notice that the word love has the most meanings when compared to all the other words, and yet if you ask what love is to someone, they will have the hardest time trying to explain it.
I never believed in love at first sight. That was until the moment I saw him for the very first time. I cannot put in words the feeling itself as I am still trying to understand it for all these years. But I guess that the major feeling was certainty that we would be together and that he would become one of the most important human beings in my life.
I can't say he felt the same way as I did at the exact same time. No. But that didn't even crossed my mind at the time because I was too stupefied looking at him and absorbing every single thing he had to give.
I still remember the first day that we spent together as if it was today, but I will spare you the details. They are too personal and I want them all for myself for now. Instead, I will jump right to the day when he went over to Lisbon. We walked around in the gardens, went to the cinema and later that evening, before he headed back to Cascais, I heard the question "So, can I call you my girlfriend now?" It was just the sweetest thing and it marked me until this day. The best question that anyone has ever asked me. Of course my answer was "yes", after a shy smile, and since then we counted the years passing by.
After that our lives have been resumed to skipping classes to spend some time together. Spending days inside the bedroom. Travelling together. Later on in our lives, we bought a house in Portugal and officially moved in together. A couple of years after that David decided to move to The Netherlands. It was too sudden for me and I felt completely lost and miserable. After one year of long distance relationship, heavy thinking, and a lot of depression I realized that I was missing the most important person in my life and no matter how hard it seemed at the time starting my life from zero, we couldn't continue our lives separated. So I moved in and that was the best thing I could have ever done.
I was not in a good stage of my life before I met David, neither when we were living apart. I learned a lot from him. I specially learned to be happy and to appreciate life. So when I found myself at the end of the well I realized that no one else, not even just myself alone would make me as close to a bit of happy as when we were together.
It wasn't all a bed of roses. We had our sour moments as well. But I guess that if it wasn't for those moments, it wouldn't have been this much fun and we wouldn't had learned as much as we did. Those moments made us and our relationship stronger.
We grew up together. That is one of the things I love the most in our relationship. I look back and I laugh from what we used to be and what we are now and the best thing about it is we get to share those moments and memories together.
Twelve years are past and here we are living the grownup lives. We have a house, a daughter, and we keep on growing up together and being ourselves.
I believe my life began when we met and I am thankful for it until this day.
Cacogavalinho-te.
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